The BIG Environmental Change

Heya peeps. I am now, currently using another blog site for my blogs. Feel free to drop by.

click HERE for the site.

I am not moving my blog, but just changing environment for a while. Getting bored of blogspot. hehe.

I'll Be There - The Jackson 5
You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you, I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you, Build my world of dreams around you,
I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you
'Cause if he doesn't, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there

(Just look over your shoulders, honey - oo)

I'll be there,
I'll be there,
whenever you need me, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah

I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there...

Sometimes...

Sometimes, it takes more than just one party to show affection. These things takes two for it to work out, and with that I now understand why I have been drifting away from society the past few weeks.

To make it simple, let's just honestly ask yourself,

have you ever felt tired? Like really tired, tired?

Well, I have. The past few weeks had been stale for me because I had been thinking about alot of stuff that usually wouldn't even cross my mind. I, somehow, got lost along the way. I went from a person that feels for anybody and everybody to a real cold person. I isolated my feelings away from everybody because...I was just so tired; too tired to feel, too tired to know, too tired to please, and too tired to show. I was just..too tired. And with that, I subsciously pulled myself away from society and isolate myself with just me. Who would've knew?..

You know..sometimes we tend to forget who we really are, and I think I have really forgotten who I really was until the other day when I was at Charlene's. Yeah..we did had a talk if you're wondering. According to her, while she was away with her brother's wedding stuff, I've been really distant. And also ever since she got back from Australia, yeah, I was there, but it was as if I am not emotionally there - just the body. You see, there's a story to that.

I used to be a real warm person. I care for everyone as if they are my family, but ever since I had things going on in my life, with the pressure that studies was giving me, I somehow pulled myself away from the world and became the this me. The this me, cares for no one or rather, care less for people. I felt as if I couldn't be bothered listening to people and their problems because I've had enough convincing them that it is okay, when I know it clearly it will not be unless they are able to stand up and say "I CAN"; otherwise, it was just all words. I just didn't see the point anymore, and there is when I withdrawn. I pulled myself away (without me knowing) and restarted my mission to search deeper into life for what I am REALLY passionate for.

Guess what? It did not end well. I wound up pushing everyone I cared for away and became this person that everybody hates. It's really funny now that I think of it. How can one that everybody used to love become someone that, now, everybody hates? Sometimes life just have questions that can never be answered.

Anyways, back to where I was. So, Charlene was telling me that I was emotionally withdrawn from her and everybody else ever since she left to Australia. I did not do it intentionally, but I really was tired from caring for a while. Guess that kinda just made me cold. You see, things happens in many funny ways and this is one of them. Funny thing was, I thought I was fine while Charlene was in Australia for two weeks because I really did not feel that I was crazily missing her while she was away (unlike the last time). It turns out, I was wrong. It was because I had withdrawn myself while she was there, that I manage to not feel anything. And thus, I grew cold. Plus, what I was thinking and pondering about did not help the situation one bit. I got real cold.

That evening, we spent, I think, about an hour talking about this. It took a while to realize what I had done to myself and that how I miss my passion for knowledge. I stopped caring because I could not stand feeling, and because of that, most of me went along with it. I live my life based on intuition, and if without feeling, I could not do nothing - that's why I was so cold (epiphany!). After we talked and after me telling her what was up my ass for the past months, I was alright again, but of course, I need some time to get back. I still feel I'm that ass of a person still.

Awh wells. Things will soon set back in place. Plus I tengah PMS-ing :P . That would explain most of the reason to it - best excuse ever!

Anyways, I'm heading off to watch How I Met Your Mother. It's a damn good show. Cheerio y'all!

The Deaf Couple

heyas. So, many of you know I am working in Midvell for 4days. Yea, I know there isn't much to talk about, but I stumble across something real interesting today. I came across..

a deaf couple.

Yeah, you heard me right - a deaf couple. They were married and both of them are deaf. The only source of communication between them is hand signals. Yes, they do read lips, but hand signals works better. They were in the Maybank fair surveying for usable washing machines. Funny thing was, when I first approach them, I thought they were arrogant for not even replying when I greeted them "may I help you?" I dare not assume they were deaf because it will impolite to call someone deaf if they really are not deaf. After standing there for about, 5minutes, I finally confirmed that they were deaf. I knew the minute when the wife, search for a Toshiba brochure but could not find it. She did not ask her husband verbally, but instead was searching and scouting with the papers on her husband's hands. So then, I confirmed they were deaf. I realized she was looking for the brochure so I quickly took and gave it to them. They were very pleased that I actually bother to serve them.

Yes, communicating with the deaf was sure harder, but it wasn't too hard for me so I manage to go along with it. I could understand the basic things that they were asking me, such as where was it manufactured, how's the repair, what's the lifespan; the wife of the couple, even asked me if Sharp is good. haha. I told them that Sharp is alright, but Toshiba's better. All that while, I was actually communicating with them via simple hand signals and body language. I don't know any crazy complicated ones, but I do know the simple body language that can be understood. In the end, I manage to persuade them that Toshiba is good with their washing machine, that it is very durable. Unfortunately, they did not manage to buy because they did not have enough points to claim. They wanted to get the machine already, but the points were just not enough. They were disappointed.

After that, the wife did something that I think means "swipe more so we are able to claim because we left a bit more". So I told them, when you have enough points, do come back and we were issue a bill for you. Well, technically, I did not tell them, but you get the drill. And so they left. They were so pleased with my service. haha. That, in fact, made my night. Because, unlike a lot, other promoters, I actually treat them like customers, compare prices for them, recommend which is good, even if they are deaf. I don't see why we should separate the least fortunate with, us, normal people.

haha. If you think I am posting this just to blow my own horns, you are wrong. haha. I am actually posting this because to serve that married couple made my night. Also, they made me feel great! haha this not because of me being able to persuade them, but of me being able to communicate with them. I feel really good after that. haha. I even manage to tell them via body language to trust me because I know for a fact that Toshiba is a real good brand and that it's durable. You should've see the looks on their faces, they were really happy that someone actually came and served them. haha. We manage to communicate for about 20minute before they found out that they cannot combine points to redeem, otherwise, they would've bought already. haha. I love that married couple. Very sweet people.I hope they come back tomorrow :)

Anyways, I'm heading to bed now. Tomorrow's going to be crazy! Wish me luck yaw! toodlessss!

Elvis Costello - She Lyrics

She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day

She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell

She
Who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
She
May be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I'll remember till the day I die

She
May be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years
Me
I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is

She
She, oh she

the break of dawn

There she was, standing in front of my very own eyes, under the imaginary light that was shone from the Heavens above. Perhaps it was her who had really showed me life, her that had brought me to the light, her that had brought real joy to me, yeah perhaps. Her beautiful hair swung from left to right, somehow in a slow motioned picture in my view, to rid her fridge from her oh so flawless face. Everything about her has stopped my heart from beating, thus skipping a beat regardless of my already weak heartbeat. A breath of fresh air is what she is, it was as if I was drowning in the sea and she came, running to save me. Ahhh, sweet sight of love, where have you been all these years? Have you not heard me call from afar? It has been a while as I had once promised you to keep these love in me so it is one day enough to blow an angel away to be human, so that this poor, tortured soul is finally loved. Oh sweet misery, you have tortured me so.

An angel came down upon my fall, ironically seeking for my very help. I heard her calling from afar and with that it brought me to her from wherever I was. Oh, a broken wing she had. I helped her out, patched her up and lend her a shelter and shoulder to stay and lay on. Eventually, love slowly grew and we had a mutual understanding of one another. And so she left, leaving me hanging to my emotions of doubt and sorrow. It was indeed lonely.

Days went pass, months went by, but there were no sign of her anywhere. Though, I did not searched for her, but my emotions sure did. Oh, how I miss the chemistry, the words she used, the love she could give. I go to bed every night longing for what I have got but threw away for the floating words which I had myself to believe. It was indeed real sad..

One fine day, she decided to return to my very life and God, I was never happier. I know it was impossible, but I have longed for the feel of connection, the feel of known, and the feel of being loved. The Heavens had heard what I was thinking and had sent her back to my arms. It happened within mere days. It was a great day for me; even though, I know there is no way one can be in love with an angel. I love her every move and her every move stops my heart from beating. Perhaps it was her, perhaps it was her who actually showed me...life.


p.s. random ... err... whatever you call it that was inspired by some cina song =P

I wish you knew
the truth
about
how i
feel

wordswordswords.

words of EVERthing

keeps playing in my head

have you ever FALLEN?

knowing you can never have?

IN deep thoughts we think alike

LOVE one another for we live only once

be strong and fight for your rights

WITH full smiles and joy

we will for sure one day get it

be with SOMEONE you can love

find for something great

always be humble

think of the positive

one WHO is great

be great and there for YOU will win

words words words

KNOW your stuff before you act

be tough so you can be strong

be brave so YOU can help yourself up

because we CAN'T afford to fail

perhaps, yeah.

do you appreciate what you HAVE?

thoughts in my head are swimming

all over the place.