A glimps of me?

You know what I realised this past few days? I realised that nothing can break a bond of someone just by a mere argument. Nothing can't be done and if by means I will do anything to make it right. The only problem now is that, I know what to do but just refusing to do it. As evil as I may sound but, I too, can make my own choices. Being stepped on and back-stabbed was far enough for me. Too much can lead to nothing but pain. I have learnt that a few years back and yet I let it happen again. So much for bein' nice. We are all just human. We forgive and hopefully forgets. Well, apparently, I am a forgiver but ain't a person who can forget so easily. Who does? Mistakes were made so that a person can shape themselves into a better person, a perfect person. But how perfect can one get? I rest my case. No one is perfect. Indeed, no one. I may done some shit in the past but what I did was I tried to make it better or try fixing it even if it was putting the blame on myself. Yes, it took me a while to figure out. How pathetic.

A burden? Burden was not in my mind even once. Well, what come, comes. I am accepting how life is and suppose to be. There isn't any point for me to put myself down just cause someone decides to come into the picture and ruin everything. This is not directed to anyone. It was meant generally. I don't talk bull about people. Not anymore at least. What's the point of talking or venting about people when we, ourselves, can't do anything about it? It pretty dumb if you ask me. But what can I do about human nature of venting? haha. Nothing. Speaking of human nature, human, we, do things which are unexpected at times. If we can find a way to forgive the mistakes that people do, I can bet you, there won't be any problem. But again, human nature, they just want to get back at the other person cause of this one word, "revenge". Really! You got to trust me on this. Revenge, revenge, revenge! Oh! What's the point? Pleasure? Feeling good to make sure the other party gets what they deserve? Don't you think that you are the evil one doing all this nonsense just so you can feel ""pleasure""? It's ridiculous.

Gosh, I am talking so much today. haha. Anyways, yeah. Revenge isn't the answer to all problems. To any problems, in fact. Why hold the grudge of hating when you can build a new friendship? Why hate rather than love? Don't ask me. Ask yourself. I can bet not much people reads my blog but to those who does, I can bet you, at this very moment, you are loving someone, hating that one person or may be just simply confused at something. Well, forgive those who have hurt or is hurting you dearly, love those who hates you, love even more to those who loves you. Be a bigger person and let things go. Look at things at a brighter side of life. It may be boring and annoying but hey! You got people who you know that will be there for you. So, why worry? Let family paint your picture and friends as your background colour! As in for you...You'd be the artist. One who is constantly proud of that picture that was painted with such colorful colours and magnificent art, the one who is constantly smiling whenever you look at it, one who will never be ashamed of having that painting on your wall, even if it is hideous.

haha. This is unexpected. Really shocking if you ask me. Just feel so optimistic at this moment. I am lucky to have people who I dear and they are the ones who I feared too. haha. Anyways, This is it for me. So, take good care of yourselves and may God bless yerss!!~ =)

News Flash!

zomg!! Heroes season 2 is out!! Wheeee!!~ I have watched the first episode of season 2 and fuck!! It left me hanging! And and hehe! It was great! It was such a shocker what happen in the end of the episode. You should watch it!! Download at your nearest bitorent! loll.

Fucked!

Yes, I am back to my emo self. How surprising. Today is so bad and yet so fucked up funny. I have made a conclusion that, the ustazas in school are a bunch of horny and blue-minded people. Okays, the story was that...

Me and Von went to school together. I sent her to school. Well, we went to school and found out that our classes were freaking empty!! Okay, after trials. I didn't think of that. So, we hanged out for a while and decided to hang in my car, along with Nick. We practically spent the whole morning inside the car. Hahaha. Fuck. So, we were waiting for an opportunity to get out of school cause the damn guard didn't want to let us out. Giving a bunch of excuses as usual. So, we hanged out inside the car as if there isn't any life. I feel so dead inside the car..As the petrol burns, I get headache thinking of a way to get out of school. And, the fucked up thing is..I went to toilet with Von and went back knowing the 2-shey people was sorta damaging my car. More like disturbing, actually. Anyways, after that, we decided to have a game of dai dee. In the car. Omg, I tell you. The car is like a house or something just now. Moving on, we were playin' dai dee and suddenly a ustaza, wait, 2 ustazas, came by our car and ask what were we doin'. We were like, nothin' just listenin' to music. She gave a whole crap lecture about the time and shit like that. And she was like, what were we actually doin' here with guys and girls in the car. I was like wtf... Guys?? lol!!! There was only Nick. I guess the sitting position was a bit fucked ah. And she was like don't sit like that, I don't like the fact that there are guy and girls in one car. I was like....Fuckkk..You hornay ass! What can we do..Damn..They are so blue-minded. I think they haven't get laid for a long time or something!! Grrs..

The day ended with a fucked up feelin' we all have. I hope it'll go away soon.

Wasted.

Today is such a waste of fucking time in school. Time gone just like that. Such a waste!!!

Pinky, I am!

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird. A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone. You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are. You get along well with: The Ring Finger Stay away from: The Thumb

What Finger Are You?

All we need is friendship

When you feel like you're falling or whenever your wings are about to break, all you need is a friend. Friendship isn't something we should take for granted. Whenever hardship comes around, we can always count a friend or two for a feel good time. I've realised this long time ago but, it hit me again yesterday during the party. My last post was about the emo party we had and yeah..All we needed was each other to make the night a blast. It wasn't any fancy party or anything but just a normal one, to just hang out. All we need was friends. After all of us went our separate ways back home, all of us went back to the same ol' gloomy self again. You see my point?..Friends are as important as family to some of us. And yes I admit, I am more to my friends than I am to my family. That is cause I have my own reasons. Anyways, friends are angels in disguise. They lift us up whenever we are down, make it all better with those words that one is waiting to hear or just plain bein' there.

Some people may not see the way I do but yeah, friends to me are more than anything I need. With them, I am able to do anything or just be myself. I may fake myself once in a while but, around friends whom I trust, you will find me and myself just plain ol' making a fool outta myself. lol. I hate faking a person who I am not. But sometimes, I guess its for the better. Friendship is pure and everyone needs a friend to make their day a bit less stress. Weather it is just bein' there for them or just making silly moments happen, it helps more than you can think of. Maybe some people will say, no, it didn't really helped me, but know this, it did. They are just letting stuff get pass the fact that they are feeling better. I know it very well myself cause I have done it before.

Yesterday was a disaster for me. Morning was fine but when the school bell rings, that is when my nightmare starts. I went back home pissed off cause of some things. I broke my file cause of it. It was really like raging fire in my eyes. I came up and just broke down. Crying and crying and crying..For almost an hour. And when night falls, it was the party. I had fun there. It made me feel a whole lot better until my parents started the whole coming back thing. Got emoed and nearly broke down and von's place thinking that this day could not get any worse. But it did. lol. Came back home and got scolded. Came in the room and started crying again. I'm so sorry to those who was worried. Saw, Navin, Lene, Von and Cat. Basically everyone was worried. I felt so much better after talking to Lene and Von online. They made it all better. That is when I realised that I still have them no matter whatever happens. Not that I haven't before but this time, I am confirming that I will. All I needed was just friends to make it all better. I thank them so so much. And I love them so much for bein' there for me. You have no freaking idea how thankful I was. lol =D

Anyways, that's all for now. Now, I know I am never alone cause I can always count on my friends for a good time or just plain bein' there. No matter who you are, you know who you are. And I certainly do...I love you all so much. Never forget that. ;p until next time!~ Byes and may God bless yers.

Here are some pictures from last nite.

Emos yang tak lakuuu!! loll!~


Yiaksss~ haha.


Cheers for the drunks!! lol..


The drunk pimp!! hahaha.


Now, this is what I call..Emoooess...hahaha!!