Saturday 24 January 2009

The Wind Still Blows

Yeah, life. Life is a pain in the arse, life is a pain for everyone; but life is also a greatest thing ever made in the history of mankind..

Life. We are certain that our life will not change, that it is meant to be. Bullshit! Life changes all the time, and life is not there to stay. It is a one time thing, and we gotta live every moment, every minute, every seconds of it! ..ahh life. It sucks, but it is beautiful that way.

Though, we can't help but to feel down and sad at some points of our lives. We try, we take action, we suppress (which to some will lead to repression). These defense mechanism are necessary to keep us sane as well as to alive. Everyone needs time, and time is precious. Some things just can't be forced into doing..aih..life.

Even though, life throws us these nonsense all the time, we also live the brighter side of things. We can see the brightside, just sometimes, we choose not to. It's very normal. Life is bright when we want it, life is dull when we want it. It is all up to us at how we want to look at it (which again just hit me!) It's not what we do or what people did that make our life all dark and twisted, it is how we look at things that made it all dark and twisted. Have you ever thought of that?

Environmental influences. It play a huge role in our life. It determines what and who we are. We are for certain that life is a thing where have to live, that there is no second chance, but have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe, there is a second chance to life?

On the contrary, life is one time thing, but to those who had fell rock bottom and manage to rise back up, are they considered to be given a second chance in life? Those who had emotional breakdowns that broke their hearts into a million pieces, are they worthy to have second chance at life?

"We are who we are" as one once said. If you think you are worthy, then you are. If you think can rise up from rock bottom, you can. Believe and you will get there. But..you just have to forgive yourself. Forgive yourself for all the things you have made, forgive yourself, and you will be free. So free that everyone can see a light shining on you.

Life. It is a true beauty. Just like a rose amongst the thorns.

--- over and out.

Thursday 22 January 2009

Reflective Writing

So I just realised last night at approximately 12am that my psychology reflective writing hasn't been done with the due date is today. I got up real early this morning to finish it (which I nearly overslept coz I ignored my alarm)

Reflective writing does wonders I tell you. The term "self-observation" was used in this very assignment. Of course, I was being as honest as I can about my locus-of-control. What I realised was that I fell hard, and that lead me to look at a brighter side of life. Also thanks to a certain someone as well.

It was sure a touchy moment for me. It was also kinda hard to admit that I was once a person with external locus-of-control, where I think my life was controlled by things like fate and consequences. Thank goodness I got out of it.

Anyways, I'm out of here.

Tuesday 20 January 2009

wuhhhhhh-huuuuuuuuuu!

Wuhhhhhh-huuuuuuuuu! LOL. I've got a date to Valentine's party at college! LOLL! hahaha. Nah ah..I'm just goin' there with a friend of mine (just to get cheaper price tics.. :P ) This will be my first HELP event that I will be attending (besides Bella Noche). It is gonna be one heck of a night! Can't wait! wuhhhhhh! haha.

So..I nearly slept in Psych class today. o.o it was soooooo boring. That topic anyways. haha :). I have yet to finish my reflective writing, and the deadline is coming. haha. But I guess I'll do it tomorrow. heh.

I feel like coffee. ..(maybe I should ask Charlene for coffee) Gosh. I want coffee bean haha. :P AMPANG!! LOL.

Gosh...I don't know what to blog already. I'm goin' off. Over and out.

Monday 12 January 2009

yeah..

Even the most sinful being can make something right. But who's to know that the once pure-hearted beings can divert themselves into doing something they swore not to not too long ago?..

Even the most innocent beings can decide to do something horrible. I won't consider it as a sin, but more of a broken promise. A promise made to no one else but me. Oh..Guilt indeed filled my heart. Who knew? Who does..

This confusion, this questioning; it has got to stop. Though, I don't know what I'm going to do is reasonably fair or good, but I hope this will soon stop.

"damn you, hormones.."

Sunday 11 January 2009

Thoughts In The Mind

I don't know who you are,
and I don't know why you're here.
But I can feel you whenever you're far,
and I can't breathe whenever you are near.

You are taking me away day by day,
and I don't know how to react.
Can you please stop being that ray,
that keeps showing the real facts.

It's getting worst..

Friday 9 January 2009

Nothing More Than Just An Update

"I've got troubled thoughts and a self-esteem to match; what a catch, what a catch"
The very lines from the songs of 'What A Catch, Donnie' by Fall Out Boy.

Well, things has been doing quite fine lately. Had my first week of college and boy, oh boy, do I love it! Psychology class was very much fun as well as to Critical Thinking Skills. I know I studied Critical Thinking Skills before, but somehow, I find Miss Chris' class is very fun to be in. ^^ However, things can never be that fun and games all the time, I got to step up and play my cards right this time around. Can't afford to fail another time. I am aiming, and aiming real high for my two subjects this semester. Hopefully I will do well.

Anyways, I'm outta here. Over and out.