A stroll down memory lane

You know, today, I realised that songs make a great deal in our life. Without music, there won't be any memory. Well, not as much. Today, I decided to transfer the old songs I used to hear into my laptop. I remember very clearly as the songs started playing one by one. My past that was a blur to me was made clear by the songs I used to hear. The same old songs that made me cry as well as smile. It's funny how time can go pass so fast and the past was just left forgotten without realisation. How odd. But I guess, it's for the better. As the songs were playing one by one, I remembered slowly what I went through last time and the moments I had and why is the song so special to me and all that. I remember it all. It was such a special moment for me right now. I feel so much emotions at once. And it's not in a bad way. The memories I'm having right now, the stroll down memory lane, was all forgotten until now. Ah. Music. Such a great treasure of life.

I also realised that time has passed for quite a long time. It's been a while since I first met my friends and it's been a while since I felt all awkward around them and all. It's been a while. Such great times I have to admit. The process of knowing them was really a great experience. I love them with all my heart. And yes, I agree with Nick and Raaga that we are somehow like a family. For some reason, it is true. Raaga made it clear to me today that we are always around for one another no matter where we are. And yes, we have been doing a bit of talking and it was a great one. The skies has never been more beautiful. Today was such a great day for me and I felt that everything is starting to fall back into place. I am happy that I finally see what Raaga truly is and also cause of a few things that had happened today. I feel very thankful and blessed for today in a way. Everything is falling into place and I hope it does the same to all of you too. :)

Anyways, that is it from me. Until next time, byes and take cares! ;)

the random posting.

This world works its magic in such an odd way. One minute a thing can seem so fine and the next, all effort is down the drain. Maybe this world has it's own reason on why things has to work in such a way. That is an answer we can never know, honestly. Some of you may know that friendship means a lot to me. I will do everything I can to make it all stable and fine. But sometimes, issues have to happen. For what?..I guess it is a test of patience and honesty. I mean, I may not have the power to make it all okay, but I do have the will power to at least try. It is never easy to deal with issues among friends. Trust me, it is never easy. I certainly wish it is easy but it is just not. We may think that one small problem is just a minor thing and is not to be concerned about, but, some people just love to make the situation so much worse than it has already is. This has got nothing to do with anyone. It was said in general. I guess, like Charlene said, there is no such thing as forgiving too much. We can forgive numerous of times and yet we do not say anything nor expecting anything in return. What is done, has been done. We cannot do anything about it. Regretting would just make everything worse.

I don't know why I wrote this but I just really want to. lol. I guess that's it for now. Adios, muchachos!

The Thoughts Of An Innocent.

Well, I've seen that love is such a tricky thing to deal with in life. I mean, its simply ridiculous that love tricks us all the time. Don't you think?..Yeah, so, it has been said that our mind and heart don't always stay on the same page. By that I mean, our heart don't feel the same as our minds think it would. It's all just a trick your mind and your heart do. But what if we manage to balance both our logic and emotion? Is that possible? Well, I certainly believe it is. Our mind works in such unexplained ways until it can trick the hearts of some. Like a good friend of mine once said, "some people has the mind that trick them on falling in love but they are actually not". The cheating heart. Hurm, sounds appropriate. Why do us humans have that little hole in our hearts that is waiting to be filled with the love of the other? Why?..This is something even I don't know. haha. Who does actually. They can say that they are a love-addict and some can say, the past took a piece of it and ran away with it. But I can say that it is all just an excuse. Everyone got their own opinion. Yeah, that one hole can change a person's life. Somehow, it does. Think about it.

That hole was made along with us by God for a reason. And it is a thing we shall not question about. We should be happy the way that we already are compared to those who has no one in their lives. So, what if we have no boyfriend or girlfriend? Do you think that it is important to have one? Maybe in the future, but not now. Now, it is better to just be friends with everyone you know. Friends is your water while family is your blood. Be thankful. I despise those who says that their life is a wreck just cause of something small. Okay, I might have say it once in a while. I think I did. haha. I mean, all that matters is your family and your friends. Who else is there besides God himself?..Well, tell me the answer when you find one. I may not be the right person to say things about these things because my family but I don't want the world to repeat the mistakes I did. (haha. like anyone is going to read my blog) Lol. This was written because I feel that it is something you all should know. Though, you all may already know but yeah, it is better to have another reminder. lol.

Anyways, that is all from me for tonight. Might be writing a poem later the morning. See yahs and may God bless yer souls. =)

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It's 6.15 in the morning...And I'm still not asleep. This is rather idiotic.

The Orientation Detector

Ladies and Gentlemen, may I present to you, the orientation detector!! hahaha. Give it a spin.
Do you see the dancer turning clockwise or anti-clockwise? If she spins clockwise you are straight, if she spins anticlockwise you are a lesbian/gay and if you can get her to go in either direction you are bi.


http://lovegirls.co.uk/content/articles/rightbrainleftbraintest.gif
(I can't get the stupid picture to spin. Go to that URL to see.)


It's a test to see if you use the right side of your brain more than the left side. If clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain more and vice versa.

LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses logic
detail oriented
facts rule
words and language
present and past
math and science
can comprehend
knowing
acknowledges
order/pattern perception
knows object name
reality based
forms strategies
practical
safe


RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses feeling
"big picture" oriented
imagination rules
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can "get it" (i.e. meaning)
believes
appreciates
spatial perception
knows object function
fantasy based
presents possibilities
impetuous
risk taking

So which way does it spin for you? Are you tempted to reword the test meaning? Good luck!

p/s: Well, apparent I can make it turn both ways. hahaha! You should know what I mean by now. lol.

The Life Of The Typical.

Sometimes, things may look like the truth, but it can be a fake. We can be blinded by so many things, mainly, love. haha. How funny. Love, love, love...The ever so great feeling in the universe! But in between that thing called "love", there is so many things we, as a human must first face. Annoyingly, we did. We go through the trials and errors, pain, hurt, joy, memories and all sorts. Each has it's own fucked up moment. haha. As we drink the last drop of wine, we say to ourselves,"it's time to go back". Knowing whats going to happen, we all take our own sweet time to enjoy the little time we have. Thoughts of the typical says,"I hate my life and it sucks!" Yeah, it is indeed. The time that we get to be free is so limited. We laughed, we cried, we talked and we sighed. The life of a typical as we all cried. At her balcony we all stood, as we waste our night away.. As the wind blows and the rain falls, we all talk until it was dawn. When the sun rises, we all got up and say, "hey! it's such a beautiful day!" Yeah, beautiful it is to me. Looking far into the distance, we looked, wishing we all could fly from this place. A song for all of us that feel the same, we shall beat ourselves in our own game.

It's just me and my thoughts

Feels like a perfect time to just blog. Again. haha. So, I have been thinking again recently. Since when I don't?..lol. Anyways, I have been confused lately about certain matters. Well, at least I think I am. *scratches head* haha. My life have been weird and yet funny lately. Been happy for the past few days. I don't feel as empty as I was before for some reason. hahaha. I was probably goin' through PMS that time. I'm not so sure myself. It was all a blur. lol. I think my insomnia is getting worse. Cause I can't seem to sleep right now. It's 4.05am by the way. haha. Oh! And..Ocean's Thirdteen is nice! Its better than Ocean's Twelve anyways. Ocean's eleven was awesome too! loll. Apparent I had a movie marathon with myself. How sad. haha. :)

You know how exactly I feel right now? I feel that I need to just let some things go. For the better. Don't get me wrong but I don't have any grudge on anyone. lol. Just need to let go and cut people some slack and cut myself some slack too. It's reaching the end of the year and...I really don't want it to end but I need it too. Let me list out some reasons.

Reasons on why I NEED the year to end.

1. I need a brand new life
2. I want new experiences on the next level of life
3. Don't want to go through the same old thing again and again
4. I want to take the next step and march toward the next level
5. Get a taste of freedom
6. Learn what is the true meaning of independence
7. Learn self-control without any sort of help
8. Learn to count on myself
9. Get to know how to solve my own problems
10. Learn more thingsss!!~ =)

Reasons why I DON'T want the year to end

I dont really have a reason why. Just basically will miss my friends awfully...Though we can contact one another, it won't be the same. But hey, it's for a good cause right? ;)

I love moving on. It's the best way to experience. I love everything for what it is. I love how God had set up this life for me to determine my own destiny. The path I chose, the people I meet, the great, great times I had. It's all here. In my heart. A thing I never forget for the rest of my life. To all my friend out there, I can assure you that none of you will be forgotten. I cherish those are worth being cherish. Whether it is good or bad, I still just love them for who they are. =)

I guess thats it. lol. I love those have been there so much for me and I will forever will. =) Lots of love!~ Adios. ;)

Flattered. =D

My vision is blurring. haha. Well, the reason I decided to blog today is simply because I felt like it is a perfect time to write. Anyways, I feel very flattered today. Very much flattered, actually. You have no idea how good that feels. Not that I am flattered in a sense that I got a compliment, but in a sense that, I got to help people. For some reason, helping to me is a very, very happy thing to do. The smiles, the laughs, the joy, are all there. Not to mention, pain, rage and disappointment as well. I may just be the ears for them but, in a way, I am very much happy that I get to listen to them. I am very happy today and also rather tired. lol. It is clear to me that sleeping late isn't a good idea anymore. haha.

Yeah, I've been suffering a minor stage of insomnia lately. I have no idea why but I think its the stress or tension or something. lol. It seemed that way because I read this thingy that Ee Von sent and it was stated that way (and yes Von, its that same ebook that makes people fall aleep, as you call it. haha). That book tells me so much I need to know and haha, like what Ee Von said, it made people fall asleep and yes it did to me, again. haha. That ebook is interesting but somewhat boring. Honestly. loll. I think I won't be able to sleep again tonight. Oh well, desperate housewives then! haha.

I think that's it for today. I guess. haha. I don't think anyone will read it though. It's plain nonsense. haha. Ok folks, that's it. Ciaos and may God bless yerss~ =D

A glimps of me?

You know what I realised this past few days? I realised that nothing can break a bond of someone just by a mere argument. Nothing can't be done and if by means I will do anything to make it right. The only problem now is that, I know what to do but just refusing to do it. As evil as I may sound but, I too, can make my own choices. Being stepped on and back-stabbed was far enough for me. Too much can lead to nothing but pain. I have learnt that a few years back and yet I let it happen again. So much for bein' nice. We are all just human. We forgive and hopefully forgets. Well, apparently, I am a forgiver but ain't a person who can forget so easily. Who does? Mistakes were made so that a person can shape themselves into a better person, a perfect person. But how perfect can one get? I rest my case. No one is perfect. Indeed, no one. I may done some shit in the past but what I did was I tried to make it better or try fixing it even if it was putting the blame on myself. Yes, it took me a while to figure out. How pathetic.

A burden? Burden was not in my mind even once. Well, what come, comes. I am accepting how life is and suppose to be. There isn't any point for me to put myself down just cause someone decides to come into the picture and ruin everything. This is not directed to anyone. It was meant generally. I don't talk bull about people. Not anymore at least. What's the point of talking or venting about people when we, ourselves, can't do anything about it? It pretty dumb if you ask me. But what can I do about human nature of venting? haha. Nothing. Speaking of human nature, human, we, do things which are unexpected at times. If we can find a way to forgive the mistakes that people do, I can bet you, there won't be any problem. But again, human nature, they just want to get back at the other person cause of this one word, "revenge". Really! You got to trust me on this. Revenge, revenge, revenge! Oh! What's the point? Pleasure? Feeling good to make sure the other party gets what they deserve? Don't you think that you are the evil one doing all this nonsense just so you can feel ""pleasure""? It's ridiculous.

Gosh, I am talking so much today. haha. Anyways, yeah. Revenge isn't the answer to all problems. To any problems, in fact. Why hold the grudge of hating when you can build a new friendship? Why hate rather than love? Don't ask me. Ask yourself. I can bet not much people reads my blog but to those who does, I can bet you, at this very moment, you are loving someone, hating that one person or may be just simply confused at something. Well, forgive those who have hurt or is hurting you dearly, love those who hates you, love even more to those who loves you. Be a bigger person and let things go. Look at things at a brighter side of life. It may be boring and annoying but hey! You got people who you know that will be there for you. So, why worry? Let family paint your picture and friends as your background colour! As in for you...You'd be the artist. One who is constantly proud of that picture that was painted with such colorful colours and magnificent art, the one who is constantly smiling whenever you look at it, one who will never be ashamed of having that painting on your wall, even if it is hideous.

haha. This is unexpected. Really shocking if you ask me. Just feel so optimistic at this moment. I am lucky to have people who I dear and they are the ones who I feared too. haha. Anyways, This is it for me. So, take good care of yourselves and may God bless yerss!!~ =)