Erm...Survey..thingy. haha

Rules:
1. tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all tagges on their profile that they have been tagged.

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Info
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different colour.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor's office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pyjamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I've worn pyjamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All of those are answered honestly.


p/s: I do not plan on tagging anyone 'coz it's sorta pointless, so yeah. I won't haha. This is just for fun. If you want to do it, go ahead and do it haha.

Let's Just Breathe

Things has been going downhill for the past few days. Don't get me wrong, I am happy with whatever I have, just that, it doesn't feel as appealing as it used to be. My mind is constantly thinking and that honestly, drives me mad. I don't know what's going on, and I don't know what exactly I'm feeling. All I know is that I am still here, alive. I guess all we can do is just breathe..And stay alive.

The Unheard Whisper

What seems like a whisper, may not be a whisper. It may contain the most of heart felt emotion, but is put into words. This may not seem important to the person who's listenin' to the message, but it could mean the world to the person who's delivering the words. Sometimes, even words cannot describe how one is feeling, therefore they say it in the most softest tone ever, hoping and wishing those are the right words. Thus, it is called a whisper.

It is often when a whisper is not heard. But it also isn't always said. Listen carefully and you will hear what it is meant. Listen deep with your heart, the whisper of your heart, and then only you will catch the tears of love.

timetable

erm yeah. here's my coming timetable err thingy..

Monday
9:30 - 11:00 - Advanced English
12:30 - 2:00 - Critical Thinking Skills
3:30 - 5:00 - Introduction to Human Communications
5:00 - 6:30 - Malaysian Studies

Tuesday
11:00 - 12:30 - Advanced English
12:30 - 2:00 - Critical Thinking Skills
3:30 - 5:00 - Finite Mathematics

Wednesday
8:00 - 9.30 - Introduction to Human Communications
11:00 - 12:30 - Finite Mathematics

Thursday
12:30 - 2:00 - Finite Mathematics
2:00 - 3:30 - Advanced English
3:30 - 5:00 - Introduction to Human Communications
5:00 - 6:30 - Malaysian Studies

Friday
8:00 - 9:30 - Critical Thinking Skills

busy, busy schedule..>.<.

The Rain

The rain. What seemed so simple, reminds me of every waking moment in my life. I can't explain the feeling I am feeling right now, but it sure feels good. When I glanced out the window, watching the rain fall everywhere, I felt a rush of nostalgia. It almost feels like I've been there before. I've seen my life pass me by, people fade away, hearts broken, but those things doesn't surprise me anymore. It is what we all will face. I guess, we all got to just live and let go. lol. Anyways, I'm outta here.

A Tale Of Two Stories

What seems like an illusion, isn't an illusion. 'A Tale Of Two Stories" they all said. "Nothing but myth!" It may seems like a fictional fairytale, but fairytale do exists, just not as happy and sweet as we would've thought. A tale of two stories..2 people of different life, but in the same lifetime with the same tie and bond.

I honestly don't know what I am writing. haha.

The Art Of The Heart.

I know I can't promise you, I know I can't determine what happens in the future, but I can assure you one and only one thing..Whatever happens, wherever I am, I assure you that I will be there. I will never ever leave you alone, stranded just like that. It is something I will never do. I know at one point of our lives we are bound to face separation, but till then, I'll just smile at you and say, screw life and its consequences. lol. Take my word for it. I will be there through the storm in the sea, through the heavy rain, and also whether you like it or not! haha. Life is a real funny thing...lol. It's already funny how we found each other. Who would've known that we would go so far with just a plain "I heard you're in the same class.." at first? lol. I know now, I can't live without you. I can, but not too long. I will actually die. lol. It's so weird how we are fated to meet. You know, I have actually pictured how it would like if I didn't know you, if I didn't have you in my life..And trust me, I don't like it one bit haha. lol. All in all, I am glad to have you in my life. So, so glad. Thank you my dear friend, my dear sister. =)

An Addictive Drug

I have been so addicted to this song!! haha. Love it so much.

Maybe - Secondhand Serenade

Didn't you want to hear
The sound of all the places we could go
Do you fear
The expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
And I don't think that I
Have the strength to let you go

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
And I'm here to sing
About the things that mattered
About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long
About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song, to you
And I was crying alone tonight
And I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So Just come back I'll make it
Better than it ever was

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

Opened Eyes

Words can't even describe how content I'm feeling right at this moment. lol. Sometimes, just when you're on the edge, thinking you're gonna fall, someone pops in front of you and save your freaking ass from falling down. For some reason, I'm feeling like that at this moment. The only difference is, I wasn't falling down, but have fallen down. lol. All I can is...I love today... =]

RandoM! lol

Oh! I'm oh so addicted to Secondhand Serenade! Love their old album! haha. This is just a random post, so deal with me. haha. I've been in love with songs lately and also coffee! It gives me a rush of ... something..haha. Don't quite know how to describe it haha. Oh wells. I'm outta hereee!

Swimming Through Memory Lane

Time had gone by so fast. It seems like just yesterday when I first step into reality. My memories almost brought me back to who I was before I met the real meaning of life. I missed being that person, that selfless, optimistic, shy, cautious, kind, giving and most of all, loving person. I mean, I still am, but it isn't the same as it used to be. I am now, being tied down by what they call as the cruelty of life. It was said that I should be more cold, more mean, so that I don't have to suffer next time when I step into the bigger picture. I have changed for the future, but slowly, I am losing my past (if you know what I mean)..lol. I actually did not realise it. I thought that I am still the same, but right now that I have compared, it is actually different. lol. (now I know what you mean when you say you miss the old me..lol) I sure miss it too. lol. Anyways, I'm out of here. May God bless all of you. Toodles. ;)

The White Phantom

Your shadow lingers in my thoughts. Your mysterious voice stayed by my ears, taunting and haunting me every night. I could still feel you though you are not here. What does all this mean? You were just here in my life for just one second, and now you have conquered my mind for eternity. It was all white when you came in my life. I could see cherry blossoms flying around with you in front of me, staring and wondering if I am alright. Wearing the white mask and cape, you handed me a black rose, which lead me melting away in the twilight of your eyes. You then began to sing the sweetest of song that drives me insanely away from reality. I fell in love for one minute. Then..You left. My white imagination turned all normal and simple again. Oh, how I wish to see that face behind that mysterious voice that took my heart away. Where are you now my white phantom? You held me prisoner in your voice, and now I'm trapped.

A Blog Link Change

As you all may see, I have decided to change my blog link from psychocrazyho.blogspot.com to lostinthetwlightofyoureyes.blogspot.com. Reason why I changed? Just thought it would be cool to have that link. Suddenly thought of changing my whole blog, including the link..So, yeah..

Lost In The Twilight Of Your Eyes..

Let's just dance once more in this cold, dark world. Take my hand and I'll lead you away from the light that is waiting for you. I will bring you to the deepest depths of despair, where you and I will dance with the shadows and whispering winds. We will walk on dark water, tip-toeing through the thorn bushes and run endlessly in this race of confusion. You will fly up high into the skies, where I will be the only one who catch your fall. Though wounded, you will always manage to get back up. I smiled upon great strength. You slowly became my light though you don't know it. But in the end, this world wasn't enough, and you decided to cross over the light that was waiting for you all this while. I was left here, alone. I looked as you are being sucked into the twilight of the shine. Your dark dress turned white and your eyes became alive. You did not look back even once for you are not fond of the past moments. You then, disappeared...

Our Picture

"I will paint our picture out of memory, and you out of my smile..."
"Don't think I can get through this...ever"

The exact words from my mind. I guess, I want just everything back to what it used to be..But, I know I can't have that. Oh, sweet, sweet agony..I will return your love soon enough. Give me some time to return myself to reality because my heart is still all so wounded. I'm barely hanging on, but I'll pull through..Let's just pray. ok?

How Far More?

We, we are two of a kind being that never stop believing. Never did once we doubt, and never once we do not forgive..Now, times had changed drastically, and that had lead me walking alone on this path that we've created together. Having a new guardian, you followed wherever the light was going in this dark, dark world. Couldn't have the heart to trust, I chose to go on alone while you followed that spark of light, that little spark of joy. I saw you from a far distance, looking hopeful, looking content after so long. Having no other choice, I replied back with a warm smile as a sign of letting you roam free in this land of eternal darkness. Slowly, day by day, you are breaking free from this cold, lonely world. I would know, because I've been watching over you since day 1. I couldn't feel anything but this numbness at heart and the pain in my chest, suffocating my very last breaths. Alas. I fell. I fell without you walking by my side.

As you kept going further and further away, I grew colder day by day. Knowing I have no one else to stop me, I let myself roam free in the darkest way, the cruellest way. Evil had decided to conquer my very soul and let my fear eat myself up so I would turn into the ugliest being that have the greatest desire for attention. Thinking that this was a competition, I let myself race. Race in this pointless marathon that has no finish line - for me. Running and pacing, I ran as fast as I could, but the light was always slightly faster. Running and running, I finally gave up and fell on my knees, crying over my defeat. I knew I couldn't do it from the start.

Now, I am this cold being, that has no warm heart. A heartless. The black, dark shadow that lurks only in the pits of darkness. And whenever the light shines bright, I despises it, I curse it, and I cry over it. I've cared, I've loved, and I've cried. Now, let me glow, glow in the darkest form ever. Let me be tied down by my own sorrow, and mourn over my defeat. Let me go. Though I was there before the existence of the light, but who notices a dark and twisted being when there's a chance to reborn?..yeah. We all know. But...the question now is; how far more?..

a phase change.

have you ever wonder what is it like to finally let go of the person you love most, just to discover that it was nothing but an illusion? well, i certainly do. it isn't easy, i admit, but the moment when you realised that they are still around, lingering at your very doorstep, you wonder, why was i so stupid to do such a thing. yeah. it was good when it lasted. was able to actually be myself for a while there. and mind you, i am not talking about no guys. guys play no important role in my life. yes. i think some of you may know haha. oh well. i will try to get over this and go on with my life. after all, life is but a step away. just so know you, i will try to set things right once again. can't be doing my finals if i have to go through with these things in mind lol. anyways! getting this out of me starting. . . . . . . . . . . . . . now! haha.

finals is tomorrow and omg! i need to start studying and work for it. i have about half marks to pass my semester! pray damn it, prayyyyyy! haha. anyways. adios! wanna study. sorta haha. bye!