what happened?...

There is just one thing in life that I have yet accomplish and that is loving the world. Okay, perhaps I do. I love everyone for who they are, for their odd and strange behaviours, for their insides, but..I have a hard time showing people that I love them. I am not an easy person to give hugs and for some freaky reason, I realise that. I guess I just adore hugs that I don't like giving them for no reason. But omg...I miss being hugged. I just got one from PhuiMun (a.k.a birdy haha) yesterday..And it felt so..so...so...warm..gosh. lol. I haven't spoken to her in ages! And yesterday when I had to go to college early, I finally saw her and manage to catch up..abit...lol. That is until she had to go somewhere and never came back. lol. She claimed she was gonna though. lol. (i think she went paktoh..lol dont remember..lol)

Anyways..yea..I miss hugs..The ones that means something at least. Not just mere hug, but a hug that is genuine. lol. Oh well...I won't be getting any of that any time soon. lol. A close friend of mine used to able to give me that warm, genuine hug though..lol. I don't know where'd it go..lol. Oh wells..lol.

Guess I'm not out my depression just yet. lol. Like Rachel once said (haha quoting her :P)

"time does not heal, neither will our scars. even if we do take action to do something about it, it will still be deep in us"

lol. I love quoting that woman :P. And gosh..I have not seen her for a while now. haha. Having one class has ALOT of disadvantages. lol.

awh well..let's just hope I will heal myself in time lol..aite..i'm outta here.

Again Today - Brandi Carlile
Broken sticks and broken stones
Will turn to dust just like our bones
It's words that hurt the most now isn't it
Are you sad inside, are you home alone
If I could just pick up the phone
Maybe you could see a better day
And you won't waste away
Under my watchful eye
Because I'm your hero and you're my weakness

Who's gonna break my fall
When the spinning starts
The colors bleed together and fade
Was it ever there at all
Or have I lost my way
The path of least resistance
Is catching up with me again today

I'm broken down, not good enough
The broken promises add up
To twice their weight in tears which I have caused

I'm afraid to sink, I'm afraid to swim
I'm sad to say I miss my friends
I know that I'm supposed to step away
But they need me to stay and keep a watchful eye
On all my heroes and all their demons

But who's gonna break my fall
When the spinning starts
The colors bleed together and fade
Was it ever there at all
Or have I lost my way
The path of least resistance
Is catching up with me again
Not today
Not today

Was it ever there at all
And have I lost my way
The path of least resistance
Is catching up with me again today

Broken sticks and broken stones
Will turn to dust just like our bones again today
I'm broken down
Not good enough
The broken promises add up again today

Was it ever there at all
And have I lost my way
The path of least resistance
Is catching up with me again today
Again today