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zomg!! Heroes season 2 is out!! Wheeee!!~ I have watched the first episode of season 2 and fuck!! It left me hanging! And and hehe! It was great! It was such a shocker what happen in the end of the episode. You should watch it!! Download at your nearest bitorent! loll.

Fucked!

Yes, I am back to my emo self. How surprising. Today is so bad and yet so fucked up funny. I have made a conclusion that, the ustazas in school are a bunch of horny and blue-minded people. Okays, the story was that...

Me and Von went to school together. I sent her to school. Well, we went to school and found out that our classes were freaking empty!! Okay, after trials. I didn't think of that. So, we hanged out for a while and decided to hang in my car, along with Nick. We practically spent the whole morning inside the car. Hahaha. Fuck. So, we were waiting for an opportunity to get out of school cause the damn guard didn't want to let us out. Giving a bunch of excuses as usual. So, we hanged out inside the car as if there isn't any life. I feel so dead inside the car..As the petrol burns, I get headache thinking of a way to get out of school. And, the fucked up thing is..I went to toilet with Von and went back knowing the 2-shey people was sorta damaging my car. More like disturbing, actually. Anyways, after that, we decided to have a game of dai dee. In the car. Omg, I tell you. The car is like a house or something just now. Moving on, we were playin' dai dee and suddenly a ustaza, wait, 2 ustazas, came by our car and ask what were we doin'. We were like, nothin' just listenin' to music. She gave a whole crap lecture about the time and shit like that. And she was like, what were we actually doin' here with guys and girls in the car. I was like wtf... Guys?? lol!!! There was only Nick. I guess the sitting position was a bit fucked ah. And she was like don't sit like that, I don't like the fact that there are guy and girls in one car. I was like....Fuckkk..You hornay ass! What can we do..Damn..They are so blue-minded. I think they haven't get laid for a long time or something!! Grrs..

The day ended with a fucked up feelin' we all have. I hope it'll go away soon.

Wasted.

Today is such a waste of fucking time in school. Time gone just like that. Such a waste!!!

Pinky, I am!

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird. A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone. You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are. You get along well with: The Ring Finger Stay away from: The Thumb

What Finger Are You?

All we need is friendship

When you feel like you're falling or whenever your wings are about to break, all you need is a friend. Friendship isn't something we should take for granted. Whenever hardship comes around, we can always count a friend or two for a feel good time. I've realised this long time ago but, it hit me again yesterday during the party. My last post was about the emo party we had and yeah..All we needed was each other to make the night a blast. It wasn't any fancy party or anything but just a normal one, to just hang out. All we need was friends. After all of us went our separate ways back home, all of us went back to the same ol' gloomy self again. You see my point?..Friends are as important as family to some of us. And yes I admit, I am more to my friends than I am to my family. That is cause I have my own reasons. Anyways, friends are angels in disguise. They lift us up whenever we are down, make it all better with those words that one is waiting to hear or just plain bein' there.

Some people may not see the way I do but yeah, friends to me are more than anything I need. With them, I am able to do anything or just be myself. I may fake myself once in a while but, around friends whom I trust, you will find me and myself just plain ol' making a fool outta myself. lol. I hate faking a person who I am not. But sometimes, I guess its for the better. Friendship is pure and everyone needs a friend to make their day a bit less stress. Weather it is just bein' there for them or just making silly moments happen, it helps more than you can think of. Maybe some people will say, no, it didn't really helped me, but know this, it did. They are just letting stuff get pass the fact that they are feeling better. I know it very well myself cause I have done it before.

Yesterday was a disaster for me. Morning was fine but when the school bell rings, that is when my nightmare starts. I went back home pissed off cause of some things. I broke my file cause of it. It was really like raging fire in my eyes. I came up and just broke down. Crying and crying and crying..For almost an hour. And when night falls, it was the party. I had fun there. It made me feel a whole lot better until my parents started the whole coming back thing. Got emoed and nearly broke down and von's place thinking that this day could not get any worse. But it did. lol. Came back home and got scolded. Came in the room and started crying again. I'm so sorry to those who was worried. Saw, Navin, Lene, Von and Cat. Basically everyone was worried. I felt so much better after talking to Lene and Von online. They made it all better. That is when I realised that I still have them no matter whatever happens. Not that I haven't before but this time, I am confirming that I will. All I needed was just friends to make it all better. I thank them so so much. And I love them so much for bein' there for me. You have no freaking idea how thankful I was. lol =D

Anyways, that's all for now. Now, I know I am never alone cause I can always count on my friends for a good time or just plain bein' there. No matter who you are, you know who you are. And I certainly do...I love you all so much. Never forget that. ;p until next time!~ Byes and may God bless yers.

Here are some pictures from last nite.

Emos yang tak lakuuu!! loll!~


Yiaksss~ haha.


Cheers for the drunks!! lol..


The drunk pimp!! hahaha.


Now, this is what I call..Emoooess...hahaha!!

Emo Fiesta!!

By looking at the title you must be wondering why I said that. Well, yesterday von, lene and myself decided to have a mooncake festival party at von's place. Just a small one. With drinks. =D Well, it seems that the people which was there at the party, was mostly people who are emo and really needed to get drunk or high. haha. Well, it sorta worked. Most them were high. haha. In a way, all of us got what we actually went there for. hahaha. MOONCAKE FESTIVAL CELEBRATION!!! lol. Rightt onn!~ Bull shit! lol. Well, for starters, our host was fucked up drunk. And her guest were all tipsy or high. haha. But I couldn't get myself high nor tipsy even though I needed to so bad. Driver kot!! Fuck..I don't fucking care!! The next time, I'm making them to drive!! lol. Instead, I got emo till you couldn't imagine. haha. Came back at 12 sharp and got fucking scolded, which didn't make my night any better. Broke down like some asshole in my room. Got emo and started talking crap to saw and lene online. My apologies. Oh well, so much for this party. It worked for a while and fuck! It made me feel so much better, while it lasted. haha. At least, I guess. lol. haha. I think the amount of brain cells we killed yesterday was more than enough to erase our pain. For that moment, at least. You gotta agree with me man. lol. Well, von, thanks again for your party. It was awesome! I needed that like seriously. haha. And thanks to those who comforted me when I was emoing last night. Really. I thank you. I love you guys so much!! Thanks. By the way, Pig and Von, you made me feel so much better. Thanks for bein' there. Anyways, that is all for now. 'Till next time. Ciaoz!~

Poem..

The Forgotten Angel

I can't explain the emotion in me,
It is something even I cannot see.
The pieces don't fit anymore,
Then what I am doing here for?

Falling away to my fantasy,
A place where there isn't any reality.
Somewhere where I can be who I am,
Some place which isn't so damned.

Though alone I stand,
I try the best I can.
To turn my emotions inside out,
So that I can live without any doubt.

Day by day I struggle,
To make my wings unfurl.
Happy may I seem,
But my light is slowly dimmed.

My wings is nothing but broken,
Leaving me here to burn.
Bleeding and bleeding was my wings and I,
I guess this is time for my goodbye.

Depart I shall,
For you have done well.
To make me feel all small,
And rejecting all my desperate calls.

Leave me now and let me be,
Leave me alone until someone sees.
I am the forgotten angel in the dark,
That has a unforgettable mark.

Let me go if that is for the best,
I guess I have always been a pest.
I fail in your eyes all the time,
I guess that was my greatest crime.

I am nothing in the eyes of yours,
And this scar of mine will not cure.
For the forgotten angel has unfurl her wings,
And is ready to be forgotten by everything she brings.

Joy in your eyes,
Pain in my sight.
Kill me once again,
To me whole again.

Another one. =)

Music Of The Night

One very beautiful night,
Stood a girl under the spotlight.
It was a performance to remember,
A night that will last all Decembers.

Looking at the crowd was she,
Looking far away so she could see,
The brightest star among the skies,
Under that one spotlight.

The stage was under the lights of the moon,
And the performance will start soon.
With the crowds applause and critics,
It is a night to remember indeed.

On the stage where she stands,
Was accompanied by a band.
She was ready and so are they,
To make that night into the greatest of day!

She sang with the most beautiful voice,
Standing on the stage with her elegant poise.
She has brought the whole house down with her words,
Bringing it out of this world.

Wearing a dark blue dress she did,
And it was a perfect fit.
She had sang with all her might,
And made it the music of the night.

The crowd was amazed,
With a very shocked face.
The audience applauded non-stop,
And that moment was indeed caught.

It was time for her to make an exit,
Knowing that dreams do exist.
Her dreams has come true,
Under the night skies so blue.

The imagination speaks.

Walking endlessly. I can feel and hear the wind whispering but all I did was just walk and kept walking. Stomping through all that's in my way, I walked. I hear screams, laughs and all that's not matter. This desert has been a journey of unknown for some. But not me. Definitely not me. I walked across this cold and dark valley of the unknown journey that people spoke of. Cries! Cries! Cries. I hear unspeakable things. Things which are unexplained by humankind nor anyone. Ghosts. I hear their pain, their rage. Oh, the sorrow of life. No one can see them. No one...Not even me. These ghosts live in the souls of human as the feed to our anger, pain, jealousy, fear and guilt. They eat us up slowly, so slowly...until one day we cannot take it and just fade into the bottomless pits of hell where all flame and fire of the darkness burns your flesh and mercily leaving you to die in pain.

Left the valley of emptiness I did and head towards the next town. I found the town that was named after me some time ago. Remembering those glory days I realised, I single handedly kill the town myself. My pride, my victory..Gone. Just like that. Victory may have fall upon the town but I have let my pride get to my head. The victory made my ego high up. Didn't bother to guard, to protect the town, I left it as it was thinking I could kill all bandits that comes in the way. Yes, I could. Could. I left it unprotected. One day, someone came to town. They were not humans nor animals..more like beasts with fangs. They came and ate the villagers. My friends! My family...My dearly loved one...All lost because of my foolish act. Pool of blood, tears of anger and tears of hate...All pointed their fingers at me leaving me feeling small...I left the town with such shame and my ever useless ego..

Yes, leaving the town of loneliness I did..Now, having nothing, I walked across this desert of misery. With no heart in me or emotions, just me and my cold, cold heart. This anger! This rage...This pain..This guilt..What is there left?..What is there?.. In this pit of raging fire, I fall..My flesh is burning..The horror..The darkness..So dark but yet...so bright..Helplessly, I fall deep. Deep, deep inside. Until the flames of hell burn the remaining of me..Leaving me nothing but the ashes of the uncared........

Poems, poems and more poemsss!!!~ =)

A New Day

Under the moonlight she stood,
Alone on that floor without her mood.
Standing below the streetlight she glanced,
Glance to that pearly floor she once danced.

Wearing nothing but her black dress and heels,
She began to brake down as she kneel.
Having flash backs on the used to be,
Remembering moments that was stored in her memory.

Crying and crying was what she kept doing,
Until she refuse to feel anything.
Feeling emotionless as she walked across the pavement,
Trying to deny everything she has learn.

Along the pavement she saw,
A rose so beautiful but with a bit of flaw.
The flower was very pretty,
But had grown on a ground so empty.

She picked it up and looked closer,
And she began to think that it does not matter.
No matter how alone can one be,
One day someone will be able to see.

As the night ended with the rise of the sun,
She realised a new journey has just begun.
With that rose in her hand, she walked away,
Leaving fantasy behind and start a new day.

My daemon?..

Life = Love = Dots.

Sometimes, the world revolves you in a very complicated or shall I say, painful ways. At times, we fall and at times we rise. There will always be ups and downs no matter where we are. Life is born that way and we can do nothing about it but to live with it. Feeling life is unfair? Yes. I indeed agree. Nothing is fair in this life. Nothing. All we can do is to believe in ourselves and try to move on. I always do call life as the 'sine' graph, where the graph goes up and down at a constant value. (a bit addmaths term there, but what the heck! haha) Learn from mistake and you will be a whole new person. Trust me on this. ;)

Life has brought us joy and pain as well. It has filled our life with full of emotions. Love, happiness, joy, sadness, anger, jealousy, fear, innocence and also honesty. The wind bring us to where we want to go. All we need is just a little faith and hope. A little is more than enough. Sometimes, it is better to look things at a different way. Selfish acts will cause nothing but tragedy. Forgive. Forget. It may not be easy as it was said but nothing can be done if no one tried.

Love is a very common thing now and are always mentioned. I admit. Love is an unexplained feeling. That is a definite. People may wonder, how do you know you are in love with somebody? Well, from what I see it, you can't tell whether one is in love. We can never tell. It is a feeling that is felt straight from the heart and straight from the souls of humans. You just know?..Nope. You don't just know, you feel as if your worries was left behind you, you feel as if you are floating on air even if you are not, you feel. . . wow. I guess love gives us a feeling of satisfaction and security.

As much as I want to say I am in love, but I am not. haha. And yet I am writing about this. Well, it is just my experience about love. My point of view on things. It may not be true but that is the way I think about it. Love can be shown in numerous ways. Through family, friends or even through our partners. Love is a very beautiful thing and yet very painful. Nothing is perfect. There is a cons in everything of life. I admit that I have never been in love before but seeing those who are, is just simply amazing. Leaving worries behind them and only present for that moment to cherish. Isn't it amazing how love makes one feels? haha. It's beyond anything in the world if you ask me.

Love is sweet,
Love is kind.
Love is never selfish,
And so is mine.

Just felt like doing that. lol. Anyways, this is it from me. Hope to blog again soon. haha. I don't think I will be blogging anytime soon because of my trials exams. I wish all the best and may God bless all of you. Have a great time. See yahs.