Gratitude Of The Unspoken.

Once upon a time, I met this mysterious girl that I've been dying to get close to. When I first glanced upon her dark beautiful brown eyes and her wavy black hair, the first thought that came into my head was damn. There she was, standing there alone, steadily hanging onto what I see as, an invincible string. The string was merely nothing, more like a strong, transparent thread. From then onwards, I started to study her every moves, and noticing her every likes and dislikes. It took me a while, but I got in the end.

One fine day came along, and it was a new start of a brand new year. It was then when I found out I have ended up the in the same class as the very same girl. A slight rush was filled in me, a mix of excitement and fear. As a result, I ended up with a crazy heartburn thinking that I must be God damn dreaming.

The sun was still down, it was still dark as it was 7 in the morning. The cold, cold breeze blew from here to there, and the smell of the grass so green right from the field, next to the assembly podium, was able to detect. Oh, what beautiful morning it was. As the morning goes by, as usual, the managements took forever explaining about things that were already explained 10 years ago. Don't know why they bothered and why they had to waste their precious times. After the long-winded speech that was given by all the management of the school, we were finally able to go to our own classes.

As I walked to my class, my friends pulled me aside and said things like, "I don't want to be in a different class from you" and stuff that were related to that. But it's life. Things are bound to change, one way or another. After that one heat of letting go, I moved towards the class that I was set for. On the way there, that girl, came to me and asked if I was in the same class as she does. Without hesitating, I said; "yes".

We decided to sit next to each other. She claimed that she has no one else to sit with. From there, we slowly developed, what I believe as, the greatest friendship. It didn't take long before she opened up to me about her life, but it sure took me a while. I had trust issues due to what had happened in my past. However, that never stopped her from giving up. She tried and tried and tried even more. But I refuse to let anything out. It was a great deal of security for me.

One day, that girl and I had something to do for our cooking class and we wanted to practice before we actually start the real deal. We then decided to hang around someone's place and hit to one of her most trusted friend's crib after. Our other member couldn't make it because of some silly excuse and that made that girl fired up. She couldn't stop venting while we were walking to one of our friend's place. Vent, vent, vent, vent. She honestly looked like some crazy person that was ready to kill someone back then, but thank God I manage to cool her down with words I didn't imagine I could actually say. From then on, I started considering on Psychology as my future course. (yes, yes. lol)

On the very same day, was when I started opened up to her about everything. It was because we had time to talk, we clicked more than we used to be. I told her everything. From childhood experience to primary experience, from the friends I had met to the dramas I had faced, and lastly about my family dilemmas. She was glad that I finally opened up to her. The joy in her face was priceless. It was as if her pathway of life was suddenly shown by the light above. It was funny, weird, and great at the same time.

From that day onwards, we shared everything we have in common, everything we dislike, what we love to do and what we hate, life happenings, and everything else. It was the most greatest thing that has happened to me so far that very year. I couldn't stop thanking God for the presence of her in my life. She was my breath of fresh air, my saviour of darkness.

Though we had our ups and downs, we were strong. We were strong enough to be put our egos aside and talk about the mistakes that we had put each other through. On top of that, we are so strong that even until today, we still are the greatest among all. We could go through any crazy times, any depressing ones, miseries, sob calls, drunk calls, arguments, fights, and so on. Of course there are also happy times. Let's just let that be my own memory to keep. =]

This very girl, has been the greatest love of my life, next to God and also my cousins. lol. She had been there for me through dark and bright. haha. Now that she is growing up, I have no choice but to let her go. It took me a lot of time, a lot of effort, a lot of cries, but I know, deep down inside, she will still remain. I know that you've been telling me this all this while, but trust me, it isn't as easy as you think it was. lol. If you are wondering, I am not in love with you. I am just very much attached to you. (just in case you take it the wrong way, y'know? ;] )

You have been a great person, great monitor, but most of all, a great friend. Thank you for understanding the other side of me, embraced it, and took in like no other. Ever since the last time I argued with you, I have decided to draw a line across it. It is enough. I will accept changes with open arms from now on. And that goes the same with what's happening to you. If you must, go ahead. I won't stop you. Not any more. I will now, set you free. Fly away, my lil' butterfly and prove the whole world that you are who you are. Be strong and free. I will stand by you all the time, no matter what it is, how it was, and what is going to be. I will be around, just call for me and I assure you, I will get there before your first tear can shed.

Charlene, you are the most dearest to my heart, and from the bottom of my heart I want to say, thank you, I'm sorry, and I promise. If you know what I mean. haha.

Anyways, I'm outta here. Supposed to be studying!!!!!!! haha. Bye all.